104 BUS UPTOWN
by Bill Zavatsky
How bad can it be
this wacky New York City
with the first twelve lines
of The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock
blinking down at me
from a poster on this bus
brought to us
courtesy of the MTA
and the Poetry Society of America
(of which, incredibly, I am a member!)
and, to its right, above the rear door,
another poster: Charles Reznikoffās little poem
about how "the lights go out--"
in the subway
"but are on again in a moment,"
a poem I will be teaching to my students
in about a monthās time.
And perched in the center back seat
(she got on at Seventh Avenue and 42nd Street)
the beautiful actress Beverly DāAngelo
whom I couldnāt bring myself to ask
if shewas Beverly DāAngelo, except that I
recognized the perfection of her perfect little over-bite
chewing gum like mad over wild blue eyes agog,
as if sheād never sat on a bus before
or expected one of the passengers (I mean
me, of course) to leap from his seat
and cry "Action!" at any moment,
with the cameras turning like the eyes in my head
that roll now and again to look at her
wearing white jacket and skirt
that donāt quite match, silk turquoise blouse
that does match her enormous eyes
(she just got off at 57th and Eighth)
and Iām lucky enough to have been handed
this piece of paper twenty minutes ago
by one of those guys in the street I always
go out of my way to take a leaflet from,
an advertisement for 45th Street Photo,
on the back of which Iāve just written this poem
8/30/93
IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD FLOWER GARDEN
By Bill Zavatsky
Shadow of a bee zig-zagging through the grass,
then the apparition of the bee itself, whirling around me
the way, a moment ago, uncapping my pen to write,
three crazed sparrows flew above my head, chirping,
wings awhir, in and out of the iron fence points.
Everythingās waking up, 10:17 a.m. The street sweeper
whirls its brushes along the curb, tossing out
more leaves and trash than it sucks in.
Whatās that big black hearse doing in the middle
of 90th Street, parked like the black shadow
of something terrible hovering in the air, something
we are not permitted to see, though we know it is death
with its big black arms like doors thrown open
to receive us in cool October sunlight, beneath the bluest sky.
A lady pushing a baby carriage stares through the fence bars.
"Flowers," she says in a deep voice, as if
she were half asleep. But I want the shadows.
Shadows and sunlight . Last warm autumn sun
with its hand upon my neck as I write,
stroking me almost, almost saying, "Good boy, Bill,
good boy," because thatās what the sun whispers
all summer until the cold comes to make us
feel as if we were bad, bad, and punishes with wind.
But now the wind is gone, though I can see the grass
shake in a little breeze, and on my face and ears
I too can feel the air. The tree which stands up
so straight and tall in front of me is a good boy, too,
for waving in the breeze, for stretching toward the blue sky
balancing so neatly at the edge of the apartment house
outlining the other, bigger trees, managing
to hold the sunlight in its skinny arms
a few last moments, like a boy holding a girl
at the beach, when the sun is almost gone,
falling asleep far away in the sea, the way
summerās memoryās nearly left me.
AT THE POETRY FESTIVAL
By Bill Zavatsky
Listening to the poets
that I love
introduce their poems,
talking the air
into images with their
beautiful hands, like flying sculptures,
we learn, as they
explain a little
(or a lot)
at long last what they mean!
What I want
is to stand up
right in the middle
of one of those
stunning explanations,
I want to shout
to the poet, over the heads
of the shocked crowd:
"Why didnāt you put
those brilliant things
you just said
into your poem
in the first place?"
Why don't the poets
that I love
listen to me when I insist
that the footnotes
to the poem
be in the poem,
(like facts embedded
in the stream)--
all the little pebbles
that hold the water
that runs over them
in place...
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