DREAM ARCHIVE

DREAM ARCHIVE

amanda. i am new tothis, i have always liked girls, but i am soo shy around them i dont know what to do. i mean i dont know what they want from me and how to give it to them. i have been in one relationship and i had to take control of it, but because for all my insecurities, that left me unsure. so our relationship ended. i loved that girl with all my heart. but iguess i need some one who can take control and show me the way.
Laruza. I have had female admirers but but have never felt any attraction for the same of my sex untill just recently. I think i am developing crush on a friend who is strait, and unfortunately, slightly homophobic. -.- it figures. She is a very touchy-huggy kind of person so this just makes it harder for me. Especially since i know it doesnt mean anything to her. But she is fun and beautiful, and i enjoy being with her..
S. Wright. Let me first start by saying that I have ALWAYS been heterosexual. Growing up in my grade school and high school years, I was always boy crazed. But, I'm negelected to say that I never had the luxuary of having a boyfriend, even now (which could be my fault due to my own insecurities). I don't quite understand where this curiousity for being with a female is coming from. My first encounter of the female sex started with a friend this past fourth of July where a friend, of almost ten years, and I met back at her place where she initiated that her and I 'try' each other. To make a long story short, we are still friends, however, I think that I may want to persue her again in trying the female sex once more, and with other women. I think I may love my friend a little more now.
Marina. Dreams are my life. Day and night I dream that we are together. I am 16 and I am in love with my teacher of English. Love makes a human blind, but I know what I feel, she's the most beautiful woman in the world. Reading all these experiences I decided to tell her about my feelings.

Wish me luck.
After all it's not His fault
That we are one soul
for them is something incomprehensible
Me and you - are women
But does it really matter
As long we look into the eyes of each other
As long the feelings are stronger?
The blue of the sky gives a hope
I hope something is gonna change
And not a cloud...
If you want, just say
we'll get wings and fly away
In our own world where the spirits are free
From any blame that lies inside of you and me
As the Paradise that opens
has no rule and
has no time
Then holding your hand
Is not a prohibition
It is the desire of a soul
that want's to be caressed
By your tender, gentle hand
By your eyes, your smile, your breath
In the ocean of that beautiful land
It is a dream, I know
for all that Love is divine
And does not need explanation
to those who have lack of love and faith
If you see that land
Get in
You won't regret!

Maya. I had a dream just last night that I took out a beautiful lady and all i did was put my arm around her waist, and I was so happy. Thats all it really took.
I was lying in bed with myself in a house way out in the country. I was only wearing my Playboy thong (I was playing with my boobs) when the doorbell rang. I put on my fine silk, see-through robe and went to the door. A hot blonde was standing on my porch! She was wearing a shirt that just covered her boobs, and a skirt that barely covered her legs. She said her car just happened to break down. I took her hand and invited her inside, and as soon as I turned my back she came up and took my robe off and started to suck on my nipples, always getting harder. Soon her clothes were off and my thong, too. The door was wide open, anyone could see her between my legs sucking my pussy. It felt so good!!!! The doorbell rung again and I woke up. Dang!!!!
ally from shreveport. I have dreams every night of a woman with blonde hair, she is built like me. She comes into my bedroom and just lays next to me, i am sleeping in my dream but in my sleep I reach between her legs, thats when I wake up. I play with her clit for a while before I move down the bed and put my face between her legs. I take my tongue and lightly move her outer lips, and then use my tongue to make her squirm. She pulls my head up and reaches towards my tits. she moves her mouth over my nipples and plays with them for a while. Then she moves her mouth towards my pussy. she gives me the largest pleasure I could have. But then I wake up, to find that my boyfriend is the one between my legs. And although i am distracted, I am a little saddened that it isn't the girl in my dreams.
amy. i was once in the forest having a cigarette in the middle of the night quietly. i was camping when i saw something move in the lake nearby...i went closer and there was this beautiful blond swimming naked happily.
i got naked and swam near her and before i knew it we engaged in sexual acts.
Nicole. She walked into my life and at the same time into my heart. She is everything that i want to know and everything that makes me feel anything. I have never been with a woman before yet...i dream of her both while i sleep and in brief moments when i allow my mind to go to wherever it wants. I want to love her. I do love her. I want her to let me love her. Never have i been so sure about my feelings...this aching in my soul...will it ever stop, will i ever have her? These are questions for now left unanswered. I want Ashley so bad...it is intoxicating...this feeling of having a crush of being in love. This aching in my soul...that is love..that is what it is to be in love...now i know...even if she will never be mine she has taught me what it is to be in love.
mecasgirl. I have always loved everything about a woman but didnt want anyone to talk about me. I even got married to a man and three years into it i new that this was a lie to him and myself. then one of my best friend came to me and told me that she was and this gave me the chance to come clean out loud to someone with out being dog out for my choice in life. Will anyway i have found someone and i have never ever in as much love as i am now.So I just wish i could have been happy like this a long time ago.
Wonder and Delight. MMMHHMM... A moonlit night with stars aglow I gaze longingly at hte majesty around me And wish to share it with you<--->with me Is my lover out there??... Where is she? Is she staring at the sky in wonder & delight? just knowing someday I'll enter her sight
The sweet anticipation on a starlit summer nught To find my love - to share I believe one day our paths will cross And fate will bring you here
---> (MY HEART) <---

anonymous. I was sitting in the bench in the very quitest part of the train station in my town when a beautiful woman approached me and asked me to help her find the lady's room. Without thinking I stood up and took her by the hand. When I looked over to her face I saw the prettiest smile spread across her face. We walked into the bathroom and I asked her, her name she said nothing but took my hand and gently kissed it. I slightly shocked but I began to tingle all over. I could feel my clit start to tingle and I was hoping that something more would happen. She started to inch her way closer to me and within the next minute our bodies were pressed together. My breathing started to get heavy when she lightly placed her lips on to mine. Her hand started to find it's way up my thigh and then onto my back. She slowly started to unzip my blouse and push it off my shoulder. After revealing my bare breasts ahe lowered herself just enough to place her lips on my increasingly hard nipple. That sent an immediate tidal wave of tingles throughout my entire body. She gently started to suck on my hard nipples gently at first then harder and harder. While doing this she pushed down my skirt and began to pull down my panties. I was in absolute heaven at this point. She slowly backed me to the sink area urged me to lift myself to the counter top. She kissed her way down my neck, onto my breasts, down my stomach and began to spread my thighs. My pussy began to get warmer and my clit got harder. She began to kiss all around my pussy lips just as she was about to stick her toung into my hot pussy my alarm clock went off. Damn the morning
anonymous. I want a room with so many women that I don't know what to do. I want them all naked, legs opened just right for me to lick, lick, lick. Then I want all of them to put their tongues all over my body and just lick my big pussy.
Aquarian Dreamer. We had only corresponded by mail for several months. And she decided it was time to meet in person. My pulsed raced as I drove to a secluded house. Yet I wasn't frightened, I was intrigued. When I rang the bell, she opened the door and I immediately caught her delicious scent. She greeted me with a lovely smile and beckoned me inside. We walked into a dimly lit room. The room was large and lit with accent lightening everywhere. Candles flickered on the tables and filled the room with a delightful essence. We sat and talked and sipped wine like we'd known one another forever. I found myself constantly glancing at her hands. They looked soft and feminine. Her hands accented her jewelry instead of the other way around. Her voice was delicate. And her smile was warm and sincere. I found myself wanting to know what her lucious lips felt like. And get lost in the warmth she projected. She rose to get more wine and leaned down and kissed my cheek tenderly and said" I'm so glad you came". Before I knew it I replied, "I haven't cum yet , but it's not inconceivable." She let out a delightful laugh that excited me through and through. And I knew then, that even if just once, I wanted her. To fill her with pleasure and hear her sigh my name. As she stood at the island in the kitchen I walked up behind her and slowly caressed her back, working my way slowly to her breasts. She turned and we fell into a passionate embrace. Her taste, and feel were more inticing than any woman I'd ever known. As we kissed and explored one another we slowly drifted to the kitchen floor. The cool tiles felt good against my back as she rest atop me. Grinding her hips against mine and kissing me feverishly. Desired coursed through me and I became lost in our lovemaking. Passion soared through me like a March wind. And my skin tingled like it was alive for the first time. Each touch filled me with sensations such as I'd never known. She showed she was an artist creating a palette of beautiful tenderness and lust. She made sounds with each caress, letting me know she was as eager as I, to reach orgasm together. She nibbled on my neck and shoulder as she'd thrust into me and would then grind herself against me ever so slowly! I could feel that both of us were ready to explode as the kisses became urgent. And the pace of our hands increased to find and touch all the right places. She threw her head back and started to girate wildly, as my hips met each of her movements. We came together in sinc like a symphony blends each instrument to create tones of ecstasy . As we lye there on the cool floor, holding one another I began to trace the outline of her face. She was so familiar and I knew each crevice of her face as if I were blind and had touched it, to see her, a thousand times. She rolled over to me and softly whispered in my ear" You're as dandy as candy." "As fine as wine, and I would make love to you anywhere, anytime !!!!"
anonymous. I'm in a club and one woman is eyeing, we both start to dance with other people and eventually end up with each other. I've never danced like that before with a woman, its making me so hot. we keep dancing and dancing, till theres no one left, its just us, and the world seems to stop. Thats how I would like life to be.
anonymous. THIS IS SORT OF A DREAM I HAD THAT TURNED INTO REALITY.I HAVE A TWIN SISTER WHOM I PRESUMED WAS ALSO GAY, THOUGH COMING OUT TO HER ONLY CONFUSED HER AND MADE HER DENY HER FEELINGS TOWARDS THE PEOPLE SHE IS ATTRACTED TO.SHE SAYS IT NOW THAT SHE COULD NEVER FULFILL A DESIRE INTO REALITY(REGARDING BEING INTIMATE WITH A WOMAN)BUT HOW CAN YOU LIVE DENYING YOURSELF OF A FEELING YOU HAVE FOR SOMEONE ELSE.THAT BRINGS ME TO THE DREAM THAT MY SISTER TOLD MY PARENTS ABOUT MY SEXUALITY...THE COMMENT MY DAD MADE WAS "GAY'S, LESBIANS ARE FAILURES IN SOCIETY, IF THEY CANT FIND COMPATABILITY WITH SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, THEY SHOULDNT BE HERE..."WELL THAT COMMENT CAME FROM MY PARENTS LIPS AND ALL I COULD REPLY WAS THAT "LIFE IS ABOUT FINDING THAT SPECIAL "SOMEONE" WHOM YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO BOTH PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY AND ARE COMPATABLE WITH, EITHER IT BE FEMALE OR MALE, IS SEX ALL THAT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU?????"
anonymous. I like to see women on the music stage, and seeing women making the grade
anonymous. I wake up with two hands running slowly down my body.I open my eyes and she is there.
anonymous. I dream of a "new" world where I can be accepted for who I am. I dream of walking hand in hand with another woman, and not hearing the snide comments or having cigarette butts tossed our way. The rude comments from the men will no lon- ger be overheard. We, as women will be free to choose That is part of my dream..
anonymous. Many years ago, one night I had a dream, I dreamt that i was sitting with a girl in each other's arms, on the beach, kissing, too. And I had this very happy feeling, like I wanted to feel like that for a long long long time..
Then I woke up in the morning, and thought I had such stange and funny dream, me and a girl on the beach. Something I'd never expected before happened. I saw this girl from behind and I fell in love with her straight away.It was the same feeling as in the dream. I didnt know her name or anything about her at that time. But anyway, I managed to get very very close to her, though, but I never told her the truth.
anonymous. i dream that you and i are holding hands on the main street of a small town where you don't have to say "vente" to get a large coffee. i dream that you and i are running down a dirt road and it is summer and we are out of breath with laughter. i dream that the orchids and the waterfalls will stay and we too will not be afraid to simply be, and this will make us happy.
anonymous. I dreamt she came back to me one night when I was resting on my bed surrounded by the mystical smoke of insence sticks. From the corner she came to me and leaned over me and had this beautiful smile that brought me butterflies that I felt back when we were together. She outstretched her hand that had the ring that I gave her once when we were one. My hand reached out to her waiting for her to take me anywhere her heart desired, it was this time my heart needed to finally arive. I smiled and reached out and the alarm woke me up, I jumped and looked around to see it was all a dream. I sat there for 1 full hour and just cried.....
anonymous. i am 19 years old. i've wanted this girl for a whole year and a half already but i know i can never tell her about my feelings. so i continue my heterosexual relationship because i am a wimp. kissing a boy disgusts me and i just close my eyes and pretend it's her i'm fucking when my boyfriend and i have sex. i'm going to her house tomorrow to hang out since school was suspended. i dreamt last night that she kissed me. i dreamt that she made the first move and told me how much she wants me and loves me. i reciprocated of course and had the greatest sex of my life. of course it was just a dream and i woke up to cold reality.
anonymous. was in a building, I think my school. It was somewhere around sunrise, because even though i couldn't see outside i new by the shadows that thats what time it was. I don't know who all the people were, but we were all hiding from some one running around in the halls. One of the girls, a cute tall chic with short black hair and tight cloths(we were all in black cloths) was hurt. i don't know why but all of a sudden i started ripping her cloths off, and went down on her. all this while me ex-girl friend(in white cloths)watched.
anonymous. The ability to dream is the most extraordinary aspect of being human...I lay down and enter a world filled with sensations,events and strange people. In my dreams I have no control...and can anly hope to remember the dream when I wake up.
anonymous. I dream of finding my love back...that my first...sex...anger and lust....left in dust for two years now...
anonymous. This September, after a fight with my lover about what kind of nightclub we should go to, I dreamed that even though I was very attracted to her, I wanted to also go out with a girl who liked punk rock as much as I do. The girl who liked punk rock had a girlfriend with dark hair who represented my dark side. In the dream, I asked my girlfriend if I could date another woman, and she said yes. So I went out with both my real girlfriend and the woman who liked punk rock, and everyone was happy.
In real life, I just go to rock shows with my other friends, and that arrangement works just fine.
lil devil. The other night I had a dream that I had to tell my family that I was dying of lung cancer. It was really hard for me to imagin. IN the dream, the doctore said that the cancer had covered all of my right lung and most of my left one. And that nothing was going to help me recover from it. So I had to tell everyone. But the one person I couldn't tell was my father. In the dream he inded up finding out from my mom. I am not sure what to think about this dream.
anonymous.
Twisting with torment....
For only in my dreams.....
Do I have the courage .....
Of making love to someone like me....
And after the dreaming comes my reality....
A coward, closet dweller, a hypocrite....
Waiting for the strength, the conviction
To turn these passionate dreams into a reality.

Wandering Moon. In my dreams there is warmth and the softness of enfolding arms. In my dreams there is rain and the shelter of our back porch on a summer night. We watch the twilight flowers bloom in the evening when our children sleep. I will bring the dream to daylight. I promise you.
Lisa. I'm a married bi-female who has had a few bi-sexual incounters since I was 12 yrs. old. My first was my Aunt. As bad as that may sound it really wasn't. I loved my Aunt. Since then I have seen a couple of other girls in school. I was married 4 yrs. ago. I am now 25. My husband knew about my bi-sexuality and was very exceptant of it. We do have 3-somes with 2 different women we share our love with. We have never had another man in our private life and nor do I wish to.
anonymous. I've spent my entire life, trying to make other people happy. I 've spent so much time fucking around with people that I knew were'nt right for me, but I felt an obligation. After a while though, when I realized what I was doing to myself, I started to feel sick, and used, and unappreciated to the fullest extent. It took 54 men, a disease, and a lot of heartbreak. But now I know what I want, if only it were easier to find. I want someone to love me, for me, not for my body, or my face, or the sex. I want someone that I can talk to, have picnics with, and go out with that's not afraid to show that they love me. Someone who won't throw me away when the next barbiedoll comes along. I want a free spirit, a caring heart, and a warm embrace, that now I know I can only get from a woman.
anonymous. I dream that when I am taking a shower and no one is home that a hand opens the shower curtain! Suddenly I reach for a towel but the soft voice tells me to exit the shower and be very quiet I will not hurt you! I am shocked to find myself following her every order without even making a sound for help or even to complain. She is in total command over me as if I was powerless. She tells me to kneel down on the towel and just to test her authority over me I begin to complain and just then in a manly like voice she tells me to "shut my hole and do everything I tell you to"! I shake my head in compilance what was I suppose to do? Afterall I had my chance to scream out but I didn't so why not see this through! I found myself constantly asking myself why I would let this perfect stranger in my house have total control over me and not say anything! Almost as if I felt I deserved it and I was being punished in some way or another but this punishment was making me so hot I couldn't! stand it and I eagered for more. I dream that this woman will show up and I go crazy thinking whom it might be! I have fantitized that it was the Post woman or the Prinicple of my daughters school.... Please help me fill in gaps in my dream all scenarios welcome!
jae. Aside from saving the world from it's death culture, My most beautiful dream would be to find the perfect stone for each and recreate all the curves and nuances of the bodies of the three women I have loved most--- Recreate their individual postures which say so much about the person who resides within, retrace the curves of their beautiful faces. My hands would love this task of creating an outward symbol of their inward graces. They all are so different from one another in physical form and personality so it could take a lifetime and not be boring.
Morgaine.i have been attracted to women ever since i can remember, but first consciously remember at uni, when one day it was raining and getting caught in the rain, i turned to find one of the girl's shirt soaked through and her nipples hard and straining gainst her top...
i was never happy in a relationship with a man, it felt like a power struggle, i always cried a lot..even my mother told me i was miserable...
so my dream is to marry my girlfriend who is the love of my life, who i want to be with forever, and wake up with her in my arms everyday...me who felt that committment meant entrapment...has anyone else felt that way???
Jacqueline Sowell. I have a dream of building a virtual art gallery and movie theater through which I an air my work through which I can speak beyond words. In the rush to market multimedia the subversive potential of interactive film of m.m movies of distribution over the internet gets overlooked. Imagine downloading digital collages and animations imbued with feminist awareness. Imagine the power of humor with image with sound to spoof the Right. Seldom is it the most convincing argument that changes minds and sways hearts. Text needs image. We need the internet.
Ami Sioux - photograph
Phoebe. I had a dream that I was kissing my friend. and she shot me up with testosterone to make me turn into a man. All my life I thought I would be happier as a boy but when confronted with the reality not being a girl lesbian - I freaked out. I was glad when I woke up and I was still a female.
Biker - anonymous collage
A. (from Holland) The only way that I can express that I am a lesbian is by dreaming. I live in Amsterdam in Holland, Europe, and many people say that I am lucky because it is a very liberal place for homosexuals. It's true, but if your family isn't, it stays tough. Very tough... I keep on dreaming about it. Thank you.
Heather - photograph
Theresa Warner. I dreamed I was teaching primary school in a third world country and also in heaven. I continued to dream of teaching intertwined with dreams of tie-dyeing and batik. Fabric, texture, clay. I felt this in my dreams. I returned to school after leaving at 14; now I am studying tactile arts and primary education. People ask me why I chose a low-paying career option. I tell them "I dreamed I had to". Now I dream in HTML.
Margaret Ellen. She asked me to spend the night. I had slept with women before but never seriously and never with the possibility of more than just that. I always found some man again. This was different. I was scared. I dreamed I was waiting in an empty apartment. It was nicely furnished; it had a lot of windows. I kept waiting and waiting for that elusive man. I had loved and made love to many men. Dozens in fact. I had been a hippie, a baby boomer, a me-generation gal. Now I was sleeping in her bed and fear had put me to sleep. In the dream the waiting seemed interminable. I decided to go outside. It was high noon and the sun was hot. I srated walking to where I had no idea. I got to the end of the lake path where the intersection of five streets and railroad crossing occurred. I stuck out my thumb and a car with five women of various ages and sizes and ethnicities pulled over hard. They were laughing. "Get in! We are going to Monona." I woke up in her bed and I had my answer.
Sunny J. Ihn. Glad to meet you everybody. I am a Korean college woman. Tonight I got the address though a Hot Mail company. Please congratulate me on that. I have no PC computer with internet equipment. I have gone to a cyber-shop to use the internet.
Fraulein. The dream begins like this. I am in a great relationship. I am not worrying about the grey blotchy cyst on the center of my right cheek. The woman I am involved with completely trusts me and believes that I would never cheat on her. I am allowed to cultivate friendships of all types, gay and straight, whatever. No one is a THREAT. Meanwhile I live my quiet life of convention and responsibility. I go to a first -run movie every Saturday night and hang out with my few favorite girlfriends again without problems. I go to work and get my decent paycheck and come home to my lover every night. We connect. Is this a dream or can it be reality. Such a question!
Funspirit. My dreams are sometimes a bit of everything, sad and funny, exciting and scary, real and Funreal. One experience involved waking up and having a 2 pillow friend materialize before me. When the big silver bear rears up in my room and wakes me up I definitely pay attention. I believe that women have access to more realities than we know. Our deep work is to stay balanced and move quietly and Connect with our hearts to heal life..
To You. We are both standing there naked. My breast touches your back. My fingers rub up your hair lovingly. I give you a kiss on your shoulderblade and very tenderly on your neck. Your velvety skin tastes forever more.
Yum, thanks for the memory!
Q from the South. Like A from Holland, I too can only express myself as a lesbian through dreaming. I am very much in love with one of my friends, but there is no possible way I will ever be able to tell her. I guess it's nice to dream...
Fleur. Je suis marie 28 ans - Mon mari et moi sommes de grands complices. Nous avons vecues des aventures extraordinaires avec trois de mes amies. J'aime mon mari et il m'aime. Mais n'est pas merveilleux de sentir la douce chaleur du coprs d'une autre femmme. Faites en l'experience, choisissez bien votre partenaire, vous ne serez pas decus.
Annie K. My dream is to help the Lesbian and Gay community become a mainstream part of society. I do not like the idea of Lesbians and Gays being treated differently because of who they give their love to. Another dream of mine is to be able to go to my girlfriend Rachel's house and be around her and her parents like I was before I was Out. I hope that one day Rachel's mom will realize that I didn't make her daughter gay. That's what her mom believes.
KakiLee. My dream, as an African-American lesbian, is to see inclusion within the lesbian community. In so many ways, minorities are excluded from all forms of expression in our community. We call ourselves "family". I would hope that we all see ourselves as one big happy family.
Emma. I think that the first time I really acknowledged my lesbianism was after a wonderful dream that I had. I was on a cold artic beach, in a furry sleeping-bag. I was with the most beautiful woman, and we were both naked. I remember feeling so warm and happy. When I awoke, I knew I had discovered my femininity, and the beauty that is being with another woman. I think it was then that I knew that it was one of my happinesses.
Lisa. my ultimate dream is to be able to wake to my lover's touch, her face, her smell, every morning for the rest of my life. she lives on the other side of the country, and it is unbearably difficult to be without her.
Laura the Marauder.
  I dream ... like a firefly wisp across my neck with your hand to feel like magic.
  I dream ... that my soul be a ground for future journeys into the light of angels
   who have found nothing but themselves.
  I dream ... all ignorance would leave our hands and the world can be colorful again.
  I dream ... a dream that for long shall we see may be forgotten if not noticed.
st.elmo. a breakfast nook, a round wooden table, a bay window overlooking the water. saturday morning, i'm getting breakfast. bagels. she likes them soft, microwaved. she's sitting, looking over my latest manuscript. that's all i ask. what if the world were free of judgement and assumptions? when will we realize we don't really know anything for sure, that we must always question?
Rebekah S. always dreamed of a non homophobic world where all children are accepted at birth by parents and given affirmations that they are good people their whole life by society.
Heather. Writer-b. 10/45- Polio 10/54 - respiratory quadriplegia. BA '76 English. Often love. Rarely reciprocated.
evie. dreaming and fantasizing seems to be my passtime for many years. I have been attracted to two close hetero women. Both know of my desires. I have told them over the phone. I now live 3000 miles away from the, so perhaps it was safe to finally "tell." Although I am married with kids, I cannot stop thesethoughts and dreams. I have toyed with having a secret relationship..but realize it would only be out of curiosity. I don't want to altermy life style..love being wife and mom..but yearn for delicious and very warm friendship with a woman like myself. who knows what will be?
the wistful one. i am in love....and i dream of telling her and her acceptance..we kiss, and for the first time i touch her skin - i have never made love to a woman before - i have never felt skin so soft and sweet and a kiss so gentle...i feel warm and comforted, surrounded by the silk and softness that is her....
Clare. Fall closed her eyes to feel, to see. I play our piano songs under the creaking tree. She dances her circles around me cutting a path through the dewey grass. And the storm begins gently. I watch her with her head raised tongue tasting salty tears falling from the sky. Her stomach grows, her hands drop to cup the curve and she looks to me and speaks. This is our child created from the rain, from our love. I place myself at her feet and opened mouth to swallow the stream that runs down from her navel. We lay ourselves down and enter the darkness and the stars become our home.
Kim. My dream is reoccuring. I am lying in a big white bed and all these beautiful women come flying toward me like angels, they are all loving me, caressing me, smiling , whispering, kissing me and eachother. They sort of fly around above me, looking down at me with looks of passion, love, admiration. I feel like I'm being worshiped by all these flowing angels, then the one angel always appears, she is the face of a woman in my life that I've fallen for, but can't have. She has been a counselor, mentor, and strength in my life. She just happens to be beautiful, blonde hair with small streaks of grey, blue eyes, beautiful warm smile, very Norwegian. In my dream she flys in above my bed, all the other angels part to make way for her entrance, they all look at her as if she is their lead. She smiles down at me, I melt. She flys away, and they all follow her. What a great dream. I'ts just a sweet dream.
Marja. In my dream I was sitting in the closet and I was kissing a girl. It felt great. It was just a shame, that it had to be in the closet. So now I'm out and waiting/looking for my girl.
Velvet. I think too many times a woman comes to realize her true sexualtity through some negative experience. For me, a victim of sexual assault at a very early age, I met a woman that was many years my senior. This woman was a co-worker and married to my husband's friend. I am not sure how or why it happened but she kissed me and from that day forward I was forever changed. At first confused, denial, hate, maybe even suicidal. I now know that the feelings, so incredible, scared me into that state of denial. Today, although still married am finding my path. I am now reaching toward the destiny that is my true world. Someday, I will be free to be with the one real lover, a woman.
Belinda. I finally admitted to myself that i was bisexual after being on a mailing list filled with wonderful straight women but predominantly bisexual and lesbian women called the Gillian Anderson Estrogen Brigade. I've always known I fancied women, but it's just admitting it to myself. At the beginning (before i joined the list) i thought it was wrong and that coupled with many other things made me try to kill myself. That didn't work, and then I joined the list and the ladies on it were wonderful and helped me so much. I came out to them after being on the list for a few months. Soon after that I came out to some friends. I dream of coming out to my parents but I don't know how they'll react. I also dream of having a career in epidemiology/virology two of my loves.
EMBER. In my dream I entered the washroom at a local club with my freind Sade. She's very beautiful. She wore a long jacket with a fur collar. Very elegant and clean I knew I was attracted to her but had never been with anyone of my sex before. Sade watched me as I put on my makeup and I could see a hunger in her eyes. Unexpectatedly she pushed me against the door. I had felt that something could happen but it still came unexpectatedly. She pulled up my skirt and devoured me. I came almost instantly. The anticipation had me almost at my peak. After, we continued on with our night. The glow followed us. We never spoke of it. Simply savoured the experience.
Bonnie. I fell in love with a wonderful women several years ago. I had been in a heterosexual marriage and blessed with 2 beautiful boys. Coming from a small town in MT homophobia runs wild. I left my husband and children, moved to another state, 9 hours away, and began this relationship with my new loved one. By the way, I have had short relationships with other women since I have been 12 years old. Anyway, to make a long story short, after two years of this relationship I began to miss my children and their father. He is a great guy and a super husband. It is just that I am much more comfortable with women especially sexually. Actually, there is no contest. I feel that I would like my husband to disappear...not leave me, because since he is a really great person, I don't want anyone else to benefit from his sweetness. I just don't want to have sex with him or share intimate moments. I do have a love for him....I can't seem to come out! My children are homophobic because of their environment. I have repeatedly discussed the importance of being open minded and bla bla bla.....I suppose to help out me when the time comes. My time spent on the internet is usually spent venting my frustrations. I wish I could be open and honest without the negative consequences that accompany that choice. Have any suggestions? Thanks for your patience!
anonymous. my experience with a lesbian was great. we started off with me and two lesbians talking about sex, one of the girls started to rub all over my body while the other one was taking off all of her clothes very slowly. after a while they got through playing with me than we started to make love.
Renee. No experience yet....but looking to change that soon...
milo. i dream i am straight then i thank the goddess when i wake up�oh yeah, and i dream of sally ross from traders, even before she kissed her ex.
Barbara Lincoln. I'm a 38 year old mother of a 16 year old son. I have been out for 18 years. My family is OK about it but bring it up as a problem now and then. I am the oldest of 4 and the only girl. I am not in a relationship right now.
dana. i had a vivid dream once of my sister and myself laying in a field of beautiful flowers,and i happened to notice that she was crying, so i asked her what was the matter. before i knew it she was hugging me and holding me so tight. i looked at her, i mean i looked right into her soul and the next minute we both found ourselves making love in this beautiful field of flowers. i've never expressed this to her before since she is marrried and has 2 kids, but every time i see her i feel a special need and desire to hold her and to kiss her deeply just to see what her reaction may be.
bobie. i've been having this re-occuring dream since i was a child. my brother and cousins are really young and we are at the funeral of my deceased grandmother. inside the funeral parlour we are playing hide and seek. i run into this room where you go to pick coffins.i slide under a coffin that has a skirt to hide then all of a sudden the bottom of the coffin falls out and its my grandmothers face. but i thought everyone was in the other room praying at her "supposed to be in" coffin.
SusanE. I have serial and recurring dreams, set in the same locations and sometimes repeating the same actions. They're usually very lively, full of action and drama. When I've described them to friends, they've told me that they would consider them nightmares but I just think they're exciting. The other night I dreamt the same dream I always dream about sailing down the Gandhi river fleeing from spies. When I got to the temple at the end, I ended up seducing the head nun. She was my anthropology professor, but in my dream she was a famous author hiding from evil fundamentalist and rabid fans, like Salmon Rushdie. I love my professor, but she's not my type at all, and 35 years older besides! I wonder what Freud would make of it. Not that I would believe the little bearded pervert. The wierdest part was that the order she was head of was in charge of praying for crocodiles and dryer lint (yes, that stuff left over after drying a load of clothes).
MistyBlues. It's been 3 years since I've taken the plundge and accepted my life as a lesbian. I have been with the same partner since. She is great and I was very lucky to have someone like her to help me accept myself. However, I dream of being able to spread my wings and explore this new world. I so want to meet others like me. You see with her, she is very inscure and I do have a lot of patience and understanding, but I'm beginning to feel like I live in a box. I dream of others--I feel guilty about that because if she knew, she would be unhappy. I want to experience different experiences with different people. But I can't because I can't hurt her nor do I want to jepordize our relationship. But I still dream about it and will continue to do so.
Lorraine. I still have nightmares of my childhood, and I am almost 40 years old!! Funny, in these vivid dreams (or hallucinations) I always manage to escape the past -- because even though I am the eternal child in real life, those that tormented me have also aged (and they don't look so hot in these dreams...). I am a woman who has walked over the earth and beneath it. I can do anything. Why? I experienced the real world......young, and nothing can hurt me after that.
donna h. i haven't had any experience yet. i am not really sure if i am a lesbian i am married with two beautiful boys. but lately i've been having these thoughts that i don't think are right. is this normal? i still love my husband, but really think about being with women. am i bi? or gay?
Jennifer Ralph. I dreamt last night that I lost my lover in a shopping mall. As I was searching through racks of clothing for her face, I came across a group of people gathered to witness the end of the world. Shaking and murmuring of wars and rumors of wars they began to quake so loudly that the earth cracked. Her mantle broken under the weight of sorrow, the mother opened to swallow the hatred within herself. As I sat, with wind screaming through the empty corridors of what had become our culture. My stood from among the crowd of rejoicing zealots and shouted, "The moon has turned black, it is done." All I could remember thinking was, 'I have lost my life, and they are happy. My animals are dying frightened and alone and they are happy. My arms are aching without the warmth of my lover's heart, and they are happy.' And as all the faithful were gathered to their God, I sat alone in a mall at the end of time, watching movies of St. George and the Dragon. Before I woke, I realized, that despite their joy, despite their predictions, omens, and signs, that I had captured in what time I had lived, a piece of God they could never touch. Maybe they thought they had won, maybe they had, but in the end it was me who woke next to beauty.

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